“Survival Mode…”

“the Lord your God will be with you.  He will never fail you nor forsake you.”  – Deuteronomy 31:6

Have you ever been in a place in which you feel your life is just falling apart?  Maybe you feel loss of the control that you normally have?  I think that most of us, at one time, have felt that way.  Our circumstances vary:  the loss of a job, the end of a relationship, the death or illness of a loved one…  There are many things that can happen to us that can send us into a tailspin and disrupt our carefully scheduled and planned ahead lives.

What are we to do when life comes crashing down around us?  Some of us lie down and succumb to the pressures of the world, drowning our sorrows in some form escapism.  Some of us run, trying to pretend that everything is just as it should be.  However, I think many people just revert to what I perceive as “Survival Mode.”

Survival Mode assumes that we will only be concerned about those things that must get done today.  Survival Mode says “This is my highest priority, and other things need to fall by the wayside.”

My family has been living in survival mode for almost a year, due to a family illness.  And in that time, our mentality has been to assess our true needs each day, and operate accordingly.  Because we had no idea what our needs would be each day, we cut everything out of our lives that were not absolutely necessary.  No volunteerism, no extra projects, no extra social or curricular activities.  Our main goals for each day look something like this:

  1.  Food – we all have to eat.  Maybe it is just hotdogs or grilled cheese sandwiches, but we will survive.
  2. Shelter – Pay the bills.  Sometimes we were late, but at least we were never disconnected.
  3. Clothing – Everyone at least needs clean underwear each day.  Can’t say the same for jeans and shirts.
  4. Homework – Kids have homework.  90% of it has gotten done. We just couldn’t always make it happen. They haven’t failed in school because of it. – Success!
  5. Recreation – Our children were allowed 1 activity outside school last year.  We had to try and maintain some normalcy for them.  This was a long-term issue for our family and we all needed a break sometimes.
  6. Whatever Pop needed.  My father-in-law is suffering from cancer along with many other physical difficulties.  Our time with him is short, so whatever he needed each day, that truly was our first priority.  The other 5 areas fell in behind this one.

In times like these, it becomes pretty clear as what is essential and what we can do without.  Being able to say “Sorry, I can’t help,” or “No, we won’t be there,” becomes pretty easy.  And I believe we can all agree that activities such as cleaning out closets and planning dinner parties can wait.  But do we also mistake some of the most important parts of our lives as non-essentials just because they aren’t urgently calling our name?

Believers, can you notice something that is missing from our essentials list?  In times such as these, what is the ONE thing we should all hold onto?  Our connection to God, yet sadly, that is the first thing normally to go.

Now, to be honest, we pray – a lot.  You know the ones, “God help us.”  “Lord, show us what to do.”  “Father, fill me with your grace.”  But I have found over the year that my prayers have devolved from intimate conversation with my Father in heaven to weary pleas for help.  And for this season in our lives, I think God is ok with that.  Sometimes that is all we can say.

However, my time in the Word had become non-existent.  I just didn’t have the energy or desire to pick up my Bible and to seek the wisdom God had to offer.  When I had a spare minute, sitting in peace was about the only thing I wanted to do.  And, let’s face it, reading my Bible just wasn’t a priority – except for work-related needs.

So you can imagine my hesitation this summer when I realized that I needed one more teacher for our DISCIPLE program to begin in the fall.  DISCIPLE is a year-long study of the Bible.  It is a rich encounter with the Word from Genesis to Revelation, and God had blessed our church with enough people to fill 5 classes! Any director’s dream come true.  But when I realized that I was one leader short, my soul just sank.

I honestly just didn’t want to think about committing the time or the energy to the project.  It was exhausting to think about.  However, it is in my job description.  So, after much unanswered prayers for a solution, I picked up my Bible and began preparing.

AND AN INCREDIBLE THING HAPPENED!

My gracious Father began leaping off the pages.  The grace and mercy of His presence began to flow around me as I read those familiar stories of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.  My soul began to be renewed as I moved through Joshua.  I was reminded of God’s faithfulness in Deuteronomy.  I found myself looking forward each day to the time in which I could soak up the Spirit of God through those pages and remember that He was with me.  I found peace.

Why is it friends, that we cut out those things that renew and sustain us in times of distress?  It saddens me to think of all God wanted to give me in the past year, that I left on the table because I didn’t take time to receive it.

It is my prayer for you, if you are in a season of struggle, that you will take the time to be uplifted and sustained by our Father who loves you and wills the best for you.

Peace brothers and sisters.

Amen

 

 

3 responses to ““Survival Mode…”

    • Thank you Mary. I have missed writing them and interacting with everyone. But then again, survival mode dictated otherwise. It is my hope to continue on a more regular basis as God continues to speak peace into my heart and my circumstances.

      Blessings,
      Lana

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